## Metadata - Author: [[Kiese Laymon]] - Full Title: Heavy - Category: #books ## Highlights - I did not want to write to you. I wanted to write a lie. ([Location 93](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=93)) - I did not want to write about us. I wanted to write an American memoir. ([Location 95](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=95)) - I wanted to write a lie. ([Location 96](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=96)) - Tags: [[orange]] - I wanted to write a lie. ([Location 100](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=100)) - Tags: [[orange]] - white Americans reckoned with their insatiable appetites for black American suffering, ([Location 104](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=104)) - I wanted to write a lie. ([Location 108](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=108)) - I wrote that lie. ([Location 108](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=108)) - Tags: [[orange]] - I discovered nothing. ([Location 109](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=109)) - Tags: [[pink]] - Your snores reminded me that you were alive. If you were alive and next to me, I had everything in the world I could ever want. ([Location 123](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=123)) - white Mississippians’ brutal desire for black suffering ([Location 145](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=145)) - Tags: [[orange]] - I cared about the way you’d grit your teeth when you beat ([Location 147](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=147)) - I cared about girls at school seeing my welts. ([Location 147](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=147)) - Tags: [[orange]] - “I don’t remember hurting you as much as you remember being hurt, Kie. I’m not saying it didn’t happen. I’m just saying I don’t remember everything the way you do.” ([Location 151](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=151)) - Tags: [[blue]] - This summer, it took one final conversation with Grandmama for me to understand that no one in our family—and very few folk in this nation—has any desire to reckon with the weight of where we’ve been, which means no one in our family—and very few folk in this nation—wants to be free. I asked Grandmama why she stayed in Mississippi instead of running to the Midwest with the rest of her family if white folk made her so sick, and why she ([Location 153](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=153)) - ago, I was standing behind you with ten dollars I stole from a scared black woman who would never steal ten dollars from me. ([Location 196](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=196)) - of liberation, different modes of memory, different policy, different practices, and different relationships to honesty. ([Location 200](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=200)) - Tags: [[blue]] - I wanted to write a lie. You wanted to read that lie. I wrote this to you instead. ([Location 206](https://readwise.io/to_kindle?action=open&asin=B01CO349N4&location=206)) - Tags: [[orange]]